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Today I realized my boyfriend has opposing views on foods as me and will never change his mind. He thinks eating whatever he wants "hasn't killed him yet so he's fine" which is fine but it upsets me when he won't accept the fact that I am sick if fake food and want something really. He called me ridiculous for it, errrrrrrgg it just make me so upset!! :-/:-/

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Recently my best friend got engaged. So tonight all my former suitemates and myself went to her house. We ate a lot of food. But it was all pretty good. My best friend even bought grass feed organic beef for the food we made for me :) so nice. Overall I had a good night seeing friends I haven't seen in like 3 years and I was original pretty anxious about it. For Christmas I'm going to ask my mom for a blender so I can start making fruit smoothies! :)

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Sometimes we hang out with this girl who is always saying embarrassing things to me. Like: "why are your boobs hanging out?" And "why are you taking pictures of your boobs?" (When I'm actually taking a picture of my face and upper body and I'm not wearing a low cut shirt!). I DO NOT wear revealing clothes EVER! Every once in awhile I will wear a shirt that is A LITTLE low cut but for the most part I'm very conservative. Anyways, when we drink she starts saying stuff about me and it makes me feel really bad. I don't think I'm good looking but I think I'm better looking then her. She is over weight and just looks more typical then I do. Is this why she makes fun of me in front of everyone? I feel REALLY bad for saying such a thing like "she's less attractive than me" but she wears way more revealing clothes then me yet makes fun of me when I wear a button up shirt with ONE BUTTON undone. WHAT THE FUCK! I shouldn't let it make me feel like shit because (to me) she's not attractive but it does! Blah! What should I do? What should I say to her that's not mean but still a come back when she's rude to me?

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Today I have barely eaten anything. Maybe 200 calories but in the morning. It was my fourth day of no smoking but I just had a vanilla cigar thingy :-/ gr I wish they weren't laying around the house but my boyfriend will smoke them occasionally. I should tell him to hide them. I just got a new bed this morning and its so amazing I'm so happy. Just bought some jack Daniels so I guess I'll get some more calories in for the night with that! Adios!

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Feeling really good! I've cut out gluten from my diet this week. I wish I could say completely but I have had a few foods containing some wheat here and there but nothing like bread or pasta. Those are two foods I am completely done with. I've also been eating 2 meals a day or so. This morning I made potatoes and eggs. My favorite breakfast recently. For snacking at work I'm going to being carrots. I may have a salad for dinner but we'll see when that comes around. I've lost about 4 pounds this week just from eating better. :) and I FEEL better. I also haven't smoked in 4 days! I did have a cigar like cigarette yesterday and one today. But for the most part I'm doing really well. Hope everyone else is too!

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I've been fasting for 24 hours And I'm going on 48 hours. But I've drank alcohol and now I'm super drunk because I haven't eaten! I'm drinking water now. I really want to be less drunk but I drank a whole bottle of wine and had a few beers. I'm gonna continue fasting on to tomorrow. Hope everyone is well.

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